Surviving through Grief

People ask us how we are doing, all the time. It can get annoying. I want to scream, My son passed away, how do you think I'm doing?" but I don't.

I am sad, I am angry, and I am hurting. but that doesn't mean I need to hurt anyone else.

I am not annoyed by this question, although sometimes it may seem that way. In fact, I welcome it.

Thank you, for acknowledging the fact that we lost a part of ourselves when Bastian passed away. Thank you for checking up on us, and reminding us that we are not alone.

It's only been a few months, I am barely getting by. I spend a lot of time crying. I don't do it while my 4 year old is awake, because I don't want him to worry about me. HE is one of the few reasons I am getting by.

This past weekend we took photos. It's a constant reminder that we are no longer a family of 4. We went from having 2 children to 1. There aren't very many people that know the pain of losing their child, and so few that do. No one talks about grief. Many people tend to just hide their pain. I can't seem to do that. The pain of losing my child is not like any other. It's is undeniably hard to get up everyday.

It's harder to deal with, when your other child is asking about "brudder, and "his baby." At 4 years old, he isn't understanding too much about the cycle of life, although we do try to explain to him as much as we can.

If you have checked up on us in the past few month, Thank you. We welcome the questions, about our well-being. It has been a rough few months.

Picture Credit: Jaimemurrayphotography.com